The girl that always said yes.

First of all, THANK YOU to all the guys that have harassed bombarded me over the past couple years days. You are all the inspiration for this post. I have some things I have to get off my chest now. In my shiny new blog.

I thought we’d start off with some boundaries.

Yes, I’m an open person. I invite you all to read what I choose to put out in the world. I invite you all to discuss things with me. I love discussions. I love hearing what other people have to say, their personal experiences, etc. That’s why I blog. To talk. To get things off my chest in hopes that maybe someone else out there gets something from it, or that maybe I do.

I have always been the girl that says yes. Yes, I’ll go on a date with you even though I don’t want to. Yes, I’ll pick you up even though it’s totally out of my way. Yes, I can lend you money even though you haven’t paid me back from the last time. Yes, yes, yes. Mostly because I never wanted to hurt anyone’s feelings. And that has landed me in some very uncomfortable, undesirable, and very unsafe places. Now I say yes to what I want to do, and NO to what I don’t want to. Yes, sometimes it’s uncomfortable. No, you can’t change my mind.

Yes means yes, and no means no. No match, not interested, no date.

I’m about to break it down for you.

Yes, I have a blog and yes its public and I write about dating and my personal life. That’s my choice.That is NOT an open invitation to harass me.

YES I AM DATING. No, that does not mean I want to date anyone and/or everyone.

Let me help you guys out.

When you use a dating site, the beauty of the app is that it does all the guesswork for you. It tells you before you even have to wonder whether the person is even remotely interested in you. It says “YES! It’s a match” You matched with a total stranger based off totally shallow superficial traits. Good for you. You don’t have to wonder if selfie queen likes you back because they already said they did. At least, your appearance anyway.

But unlike messaging someone you’ve matched with, it is creepy to seek someone out that has not matched with you. If you see someone on a dating site, and there is no match it means they didn’t swipe right. They didn’t say YES. If it’s a site like OKCupid and no swiping/matching is involved, and you message them and they don’t respond… the last thing you should do is go find them on social media. Because now you’ve lost before you’ve even begun. This is desperate. Laws of attraction people. C’mon. This isn’t kindergarten. That is creepy. Nobody wants to date a creep.

Sometimes I take breaks from dating.  Sometimes I date the same guy for a few weeks while I feel things out, and I delete the apps on my phone. Sometimes I delete the apps because I need more room to take all my billion photos each day. Sometimes I’m just not interested in dating at the moment.  If I’m not responding to you, it’s because I’m either busy or I don’t want to talk to you. I could just flat out not be attracted to you or you’ve sent me several messages and now I’m REALLY not interested. Sometimes, I’m just hung up on some other guy. Sometimes your Instagram pictures are weird. You take too many selfies. You don’t have any pictures with trees. Or you post too many pictures with girls. Or it’s clear your baby mama and you have some drama. Hell, if you have a Chihuahua… that’s reason enough for me because I don’t like little dogs. Whatever it is, it’s my reason for deciding that I’m not interested.

Me ignoring you is not ghosting you. It’s me, being not interested in responding to you. That’s a sign! You should read it! No response is the only response you need!

Let me tell you about a guy that I turned down, that won.

I matched with this guy on Tinder awhile ago, like a year or two. We talked for a bit but I wasn’t super feelin it. He was polite and the conversation was good but for some reason I just wasn’t sure about dating him. This had nothing to do with him. It was because I was using Tinder as a distraction from my on again/ off again boyfriend. And things were about to come back on. Against my better judgement, I went on the date anyway. I had a good time and he was polite, great conversationalist, had his life together, etc… but I still wasn’t super feelin it. I was highly distracted by my sometimes ex-boyfriend. Tinder guy was a total gentleman, sent me flowers at work, and asked me on another date. I was flattered, and felt bad for not being that interested. I did go out with him again, but again was not feeling itand ultimately felt bad. I eventually told him that something was missing, but that I thought he was a nice guy and really, really appreciated the flowers.  He took it in stride and thanked me for being honest. That was it. He didn’t message me obsessively or stalk me on facebook or social media. And you know what? After I realized that things still sucked with my on again/ off again boyfriend, I felt like a fool. So I reached out to him, and I asked him out. He turned me down.

I have always felt like I missed out on a really nice guy (and some Seahawks tickets) because my head was stuck up my ass. Who knows- maybe- probably I would have gone out with him again only to realize I still wasn’t that interested. But the fact is that as soon as I told him how I felt, that was all he needed. He was confident and secure enough to know that he wanted to be with someone that was super into him, and that was attractive.

The moral is, there are signs and you should read them. I don’t enjoy being a bitch, and I don’t enjoy being harassed. If you ask me out and I say no, then I mean no. No means no. Trying to convince me, or getting mad, trying to manipulate me into feeling guilty- whatever desperate tactic you’re using is actually just pissing me off enough to write a blog about it. Who knows, maybe you just really wanted to end up one of the guys I blog about.

But there’s one common denominator in all of the guys I blog about– none of them are in my life anymore.

 

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